You Just Have to WANT It

"You just have to WANT it."

That quote is from a real estate show on HGTV called Hawaii Life. I'm choosing to apply it to my life rather than dreamy homes in paradise. I have a big list of WANTS that may not have the best odds in the eyes of a realist. My life is a testament to miracles and unlikely situations though, so I'm diving in head first. I'm ready to fight with all I have for my "wants", my dreams.

I want to have a baby. I have come to terms with the fact that I won't get to carry that baby. I get that. I understand that it's going to be a tough road and IVF will be incredibly hard on my body. I understand that there are risks and that my doctors have concerns. I also understand it is expensive and will be stressful. I believe though. I have faith. I have hope. I am optimistic. We believe. We have faith. We have hope. We are optimistic. Lee and I are the strongest team and we are ready to fight for this baby that we already love.

I want to teach. I want to brighten the lives of students, families, and other teachers. I want to embark on things in the classroom without concerns of weakness or illness. I want to be me without being ashamed of revealing medical realities that might make others uncomfortable.

I want to enjoy and support Lee and his basketball team. I want to go to the games and be a helpful supporter of the team.

I want to participate in things - things I enjoy doing. I want to cook, clean, go to concerts, take Jackson to the park, make friends and spend time with friends.

I want to do what is right for my health. I want to accept my limitations and be at peace with the things my body needs. I want to live fully with no regrets.

Simply put, I want it all. We want it all. Together, I know we are going to continue to live beautifully. :)