Little has really changed since I wrote Thursday evening. My overall well-being has diminished to some extent each day because of the toll the powerful treatments are taking on my weak system. It's all been making me feel pretty rough overall. I barely have a voice and feel quite weak and achy. I've still been fighting to breathe, but the huge increase in solu-medrol is making a big difference. I guess the worse part, besides how I'm feeling is the pain from the Lovenox shots. The full dose is significantly more painful than the minimal dose I've been on. They say it will only be a few more days though...I can push through for that...I can.
Friday afternoon, Dr. Olson stopped in to visit me. It was unlike any encournter we've had. She was so serious and resolved. She explained that my health in a pretty serious condition and she won't allow me to leave her care until I am in a much safer state. She's on vacation beginning this weekend, but said that she'd still be in town for the first part of next week. If I am out of the hospital by then, she said she'd come in to see me again before I head home, if it's not until later in the week, she would leave all the information for Dr. Cosgrove, her ILD partner to meet with me. Right now, she and Dr. Katial are working on the plan for my course of treatment. The immediate concern is to get the treatment for the pulmonary embolism on track. After that it would be imperative to follow suit with aspirin desensitization, treatment for Churg Strauss and everything else.
She also made it clear that Dr. Thompson is not the safe way to go any longer for my "go to" doctor. He just isn't available or reliable enough. She recommended that she speak with Dr. Raghavan and get her on board with the treatment plan. My immediate needs will require visiting the doctor bi-weekly for labwork, well checks, and weigh ins. As far as work, she said that would depend on how my body fights and handles all the combined treatments in connection to the germy school environment. That's something I just won't allow myself to process for now...
So, for the time being, I've been fighting with everything in me to stay strong, as strong as I can. Because this is harder than anything I honestly ever thought I was going to face on this trip to Denver. I am so blessed though, because, Melodie, Debbie, and Katie just popped in like sunbeams this weekend. They decorated my hospital room with cards from school and their bright smiles. They filled the silence with hilarious stories even when I couldn't laugh. Katie read blurbs from the paper and they brought nutty stories from the hallway when my walking privileges were taken away because I was getting worse. It was a gift I'll never be able to repay or explain, but I will NEVER forget a second of the time they gave to me.
The high doses have begun to pay off. My breathing is finally improving again. Dr. Wells dropped by today and said they are dropping the solu-medrol again to see how I react. He even gave me permission to spend a little time outside on a bench in the beautiful Denver sunshine! What a treat after this long week inside! My ECHO is now scheduled for tomorrow morning to check for eosinophils in my heart. The other big focus as I mentioned is nutrition. They are attacking me with every supplement and calorie possible at this point. It's practically humorous how often the nutrition people come into my room now to bring trays of this or that. I'm doing all I can to try to eat, but it feels like such a monstrous mission.
Anyhow, the weekend is coming to a close and it's almost time for another round of treatments. I don't know what tomorrow will bring as far as how I'll feel, or test results, or even a new outline for my week. All I know is that this is where I am now, and I am making it ~ I really am making it. More than just making it, I am going to beat this!
