I left a message with a nurse at National Jewish for Dr. Olson on June 13th informing her that the biopsy had been scheduled. I left it at that knowing that if she needed to call me, she would. In the meantime, I convinced myself that this whole thing was getting blown out of proportion. It was not a big deal. I have finally started to feel better and there is nothing to even be testing for. (The mind is a wonderful thing!) Anyhow, I was almost feeling like it should be time to just cut the cord with Denver and say I'll be okay. The communication thing just doesn't work with doctors cross country and frankly it's getting exhausting. I am happy with how things are now, so this would be a good time to stop dragging things out.
That's exactly when it happened - just when I've almost convinced myself - the phone rings - it was Dr. Olson-
"hello"
"Hi Toni, how are you? Tell me what's been going on?"
Geez!! That voice!!! She is so dang comforting! So reassuring! I almost wanted her to be mean or inconsiderate. It would be easier if she would do something to disappoint me. She hasn't though. She and the other doctors at National Jewish are the only doctors that haven't let me down. That's why it's so hard to let go and so hard to trust anyone else. So much for my attempt at cutting the cord!
As we talked she mentioned how she and Dr. Katial think it is important for me to come back out there this summer for testing. Although things are better now, she reminded me about my rough winter and that now is the time to do something about it. She said that if I want a chance to get back into the classroom, this is the time for them to figure things out. She also wanted to do other tests before the bone marrow biopsy is done and said she would prefer they do it out there. I mentioned that Dr. Thompson said he had tried to call her & she said she did leave him a message. Hmmm.... So frustrating...
She said she was going to call Dr. Thompson and talk to him about things. She said I would hear back from her this week. Oh how this changes things...
