Well if I had to name one thing I'm good at, I'd have to say it's avoidance! When I decided not to deal with Denver, I really didn't deal with it!
A couple of weeks ago, I finally decided to cancel the trip. As much as I love Denver and my doctors at National Jewish I just felt like it wouldn't be worth going. Mom was against going, it will cost money that I don't have, and I convinced myself it probably wouldn't help anyhow. Decision made. Trip and appointments cancelled.
Or so I thought....until last week. I got an email from Kaci telling me that Dr. Olson had received updates from my doctor and was concerned. She wanted me know she was keeping me on the schedule for all my appointments. She felt like I need to make the trip and they can help me. Staying true to my avoidance, I took some time to process the email.
After a serious heart to heart with Mom and some serious thinking on my own, I've finally decided to go. (or realized it's meant to happen) Although I have felt completely "done" and exhausted lately, I can't let that cloud my judgment. I can't let it rob me of a chance at wellness, normalcy, something better. If Dr. Olson and my other doctors at National Jewish still believe, I have to go for it. After all, they're the Best in the nation at what they do. Whatever comes of this trip, I know I am supposed to go and in the end it will be good.
