I woke to a rush of emotions and a flood of thoughts about what had happened in Denver. I headed to Dr. Caudill's office feeling hopeful about all that Dr. Olson had said.
A student met with me first and said that Dr. Olson had called Wednesday evening and spoken with Dr. Caudill for over an hour. He even had more than a page of notes from the conversation. I felt good about that. Things would be consistent.
The doctor came in and the vibe wasn't quite the same as it had been even a week earlier when I had been there. Some of things that Dr. Olson had made seem crucial, he seemed to be blowing off. She was insistent on my having a pulmonologist and when I asked him about referring me he said well you just saw her, so we can get that into the works soon. ??? huh??? Well, okay, I guess he knows what he's talking about. He did just talk with her last night, right? He also didn't examine me. I was actually there because I was sick and he didn't listen to my lungs or anything.
I left a little perplexed. He seemed on board...yet he didn't. Maybe this was just a reality check. Maybe I was over analyzing things because less than 24 hours ago I was with the superstar of all doctors and now I'm just with a good doctor. Could that be the explanation? It has to be it. Surely he isn't really blowing me off - or blowing off the things she's suggested after he promised to work with her...
I don't know, I hope I'm just tired and sick and over-thinking things. Dr. Olson is right, things are ready to turn around.
