Sunday was another rough day. Dr. Phillips let me know that the ENT would not be checking in on me until Monday. I was getting an overwhelming vibe from her that she had no clue or confidence in how to treat me. Actually, it seemed like she was almost scared of treating me. I started feeling like I was just dangling in the hospital...just hanging on by a thread. So much pressure was building in my head from the blood. My ears had even started hurting. My blood pressure had continued to drop so they had started a bolus of fluids which means pumping the IV fluids at a very fast rate in back to back bags. I was feeling even more detached and nauseaous. The room was spinning constantly. What was going on with my body? How was this going to get better?
Today, I found out that my H&H level has dropped to 8.1. The nurse said she was almost positive I would need a blood transfusion today. That's huge. A blood transfusion? You can't just blow that off. Why is this happening? Why can't I fight anymore? It's not like I'm not trying...not doing all I can to will myself better. I was planning to call Dr. Olson for help because something had to be done. When Debbie came by to visit though, she confessed to calling Dr. Raghavan on her own. I have to admit I was ...... a bit annoyed and frustrated, but it was already done. I know she did it because she cares, but I honestly felt like she overstepped & felt powerless. She told me Dr. Raghavan was going to call Dr. Olson today so I felt like I could not call her myself. I didn't want multiple messages flowing into Dr. Olson today confusing my already complicated care. I didn't really know what Debbie and Dr. Raghavan had discussed so I didn't want to further confuse things. I decided to wait and let Dr. Raghavan call. Dr. Olson is so good, I knew I'd probably hear from her tonight or tomorrow after the two doctors talk.
That night, the ENT finally came and removed the Rhino Rockets. It was a very painful procedure. He discussed the options and I finally gave in to another form of packing to replace the Rhino Rocket. I was still bleeding and losing blood so something had to be done. He said he would check on me Tuesday and remove the new packing on Wednesday. I have decided that Dr. Phillips is useless. She refuses to make any decisions at all. She asked me if I want a blood transfusion. I was shocked. I told her I couldn't make that decision and she said "okay then we'll see what your level is tomorrow. It's dangerously low, but we'll keep pumping you with fluids for now to keep your BP from dropping too low."
Oh my gosh!
