Monday, July 7, 2014

a sluggish heart

I'm obedient. I'm a pretty good listener too. That's why I'm not worried (or offended) that Dr. Fenster called my heart sluggish today. I completely trust him. I'm alive today because God so strategically placed him in my life four years ago. That gives him the freedom I to call my heart names and then tell me not to worry about it. "Let me figure things out, then we'll deal with it." That's all he had to say. I'm on board and I'm really not going to worry.

Honestly though, I can be "not worried" but still not like the situation. That's okay, right? He and Dr. Olson have had some "concerns" about some of  my recent test results. Apparently my heart is being weird and they need to investigate. For now, that means wearing a holter monitor for a week and trusting them to take care of the rest. Heart monitors stink. Yeah, I know, there are so many things that are worse, more painful, and more invasive that I could have to go through. Of course I'm thankful it's just for a week and not a month. Seriously though, it stinks. I'm not looking forward to it. I don't like it. I don't want to wear it. I'm not going to like it. I'm obedient though. I also am not about to give up this fight. Soooo, I guess that means I'll be getting a lovely new accessory from National Jewish in a few days. I'll follow the directions and I'll continue doing what I do until I hear from Dr. Fenster.

I know it will all be okay.